If I was asked "who knows you the best?", I would undoubtedly say "myself".. but I wonder how much truth that answer really holds.. I know myself right now, at this point of time..only upto this present moment, But do I know what I am likely to be in the next few minutes, or till an unexpected situation needs me ? I'm not entirely sure of it today.
No ones life really goes according to the plan they have in the head..Its like that old joke "if u want to make God laugh, plan your own life!". I repeatedly tell myself and believe that I love the life I have..I have no doubts about it..but it may also be because I accept whatever comes my way without fighting..A few friends call it my complacence !
But each time I have been face to face with the unexpected, I battle with a lot of questions which have ever changing answers..my values, my beliefs, my opinions all challenged and I seem lost ! In search of answers in the wilderness of scary thoughts.
Maybe God wants me to be lost..so that I can find myself ..discover the person I may really be, get out of the comfort of being the person I am told I am, and figure the undiscovered character thats asleep, waiting to yawn and stretch and see life !
Rights and wrongs, do's and dont's, should's and shouldnt's are plenty !! All keeping me safe from encountering myself..But I want to probe deeper..and be prepared to face myself everytime I am challenged by another shocker that life would give.
Its going to be an unpredictable journey, with many potholes and bumps and speed breakers..maybe even an exciting one..but what the heck !! just one life...I'l take the ride..lets see if I come out with bruises or a new avatar !
After all if I dont see any change at all or acquire no new insights, I might have to check my pulse..I may be dead !!
No ones life really goes according to the plan they have in the head..Its like that old joke "if u want to make God laugh, plan your own life!". I repeatedly tell myself and believe that I love the life I have..I have no doubts about it..but it may also be because I accept whatever comes my way without fighting..A few friends call it my complacence !
But each time I have been face to face with the unexpected, I battle with a lot of questions which have ever changing answers..my values, my beliefs, my opinions all challenged and I seem lost ! In search of answers in the wilderness of scary thoughts.
Maybe God wants me to be lost..so that I can find myself ..discover the person I may really be, get out of the comfort of being the person I am told I am, and figure the undiscovered character thats asleep, waiting to yawn and stretch and see life !
Rights and wrongs, do's and dont's, should's and shouldnt's are plenty !! All keeping me safe from encountering myself..But I want to probe deeper..and be prepared to face myself everytime I am challenged by another shocker that life would give.
Its going to be an unpredictable journey, with many potholes and bumps and speed breakers..maybe even an exciting one..but what the heck !! just one life...I'l take the ride..lets see if I come out with bruises or a new avatar !
After all if I dont see any change at all or acquire no new insights, I might have to check my pulse..I may be dead !!
