Monday, November 21, 2011

Life is a roller coaster ride

It has been a strange time.. the past few months.

A lot of unexpected things happened and everything that was set and predictable took a U- turn..

The days when i was anticipating absolute calm and peace turned out to be an epitome of frenzy..the busier looking weekends fell flat on their face and never woke up ! Kids started growing up too fast and the adults turned to a notorious bunch of adolesents. The never ending work shyed away behind an avalanche of time and time itself moved against its direction.

At first, I was grappling with the confusion..the stress and uncertainity of it all...slowly, true to any human beings intrinsic nature, i started getting used to it.. started looking for the positives, the reasons..I started intellectualizing the whole scenario in my head so i could justify my lack of action and complaicence..

A close friend of mine recently said to me " Kavyal, you are pathetically positive...and im not sure that works". Maybe it doesnt..but it allows me to smile and and wish and look forward to the uncertainity with some hope..  Festering fear and "realism" would never allow me the freedom to relax and leave my fate upto the higher powers !!

I confess i am a strong believer in destiny and karma and all cliched things as such..dependance on astrology and my solo conversations with God bring me peace. Patience is not a virtue i was born with..the restlessness of not knowing the future would kill me if i wasent pathetically positive..

I dont have any answers yet to why this time has been so tumultous and whether it will change or try my patience for a few more months... but  I'm still wondering what kind of a lesson was God trying to teach me through this painful workout on  this bumpy rocky road.

.Maybe He tried to explain that Life is a roller coaster ride..It has its ups and downs..but its your choice to scream or enjoy the ride.