For a while, my mind was in the denial mode..i had stopped counting the passing years after i got 24..i froze myself there ( or tried to)..then on my 27th birthday, my husband made me come out of that 24 year bracket and made me smell the coffee.. i wasent a teenager anymore !! life was fast changing and there were more responsibilities than i wanted to come to terms with !
At 24, I was a mother. I loved the feeling so much that at 25, i become a mother again ! obviously the process of bearing 2 babies changes you in so many ways, you sometimes even forget what u looked like before u were a mom !
Perpetually dressed in feeding gowns that look like tents, no time for doing your hair..nailpolish suddenly becomes carcinogenic and nails have to be as short as non existent ! lipstick is not happenning because it may harm your child's skin..perfume makes the baby sneeze !!
So basically you turn into a fat, ugly cow for a few years, till you realise that other women around your husband are much better looking than cows !!
By the time you can manage to bring yourself back into shape, 2 more years have gone by and viola !! You're 30 !!!!! Ageing sets in.. youre supposed to be using under eye creams that hide your fine lines.. i just cant get myself to do it !
The other side of turning 30.. I've never bloody felt so confident before. I've never been more comfertable with my mind and body and people around me ! There have been times when I looked far better for sure, when I fit into smaller sizes and could control my appetite, but I was never as happy !!
I almost feel free of ridiculous expectations.. I can say 'yes' , I can say 'no' and I know what I am saying !! I can multitask without complaining,I can make friends more wisely and easily now because at this stage, friendships are not need based. you've seen it all, done it all and now you're just making great friends to add new dimensions to your ever growing circle of life !
..I have now become more of myself without trying to be someone who may be more appealing ! the biggest realisation of all... People love me for who I am and its fine to be the imperfect, impatient,short tempered, fat, wheatish, sometimes daft person that I have always been..
Approaching 30, my struggle seems to be over ! If crows feet are appearing at the corners of my eyes, I look at them like proof of having smiled more than cried..if the folds of skin refuse to separate themselves from my tummy, its testimonial for having 2 wonderful children.. the number of grey appearing here and there are the numbers of mistakes made lessons learnt..moreover, theres no shame in accepting that I did make mistakes, and I went wrong a million times !! apologizing doesnt seem so hard anymore, nor does loving !
This year, I'm going to celebrate being 30, rather than deny it ! Coz after all, life is just starting out and it keeps getting better !!
At 24, I was a mother. I loved the feeling so much that at 25, i become a mother again ! obviously the process of bearing 2 babies changes you in so many ways, you sometimes even forget what u looked like before u were a mom !
Perpetually dressed in feeding gowns that look like tents, no time for doing your hair..nailpolish suddenly becomes carcinogenic and nails have to be as short as non existent ! lipstick is not happenning because it may harm your child's skin..perfume makes the baby sneeze !!
So basically you turn into a fat, ugly cow for a few years, till you realise that other women around your husband are much better looking than cows !!
By the time you can manage to bring yourself back into shape, 2 more years have gone by and viola !! You're 30 !!!!! Ageing sets in.. youre supposed to be using under eye creams that hide your fine lines.. i just cant get myself to do it !
The other side of turning 30.. I've never bloody felt so confident before. I've never been more comfertable with my mind and body and people around me ! There have been times when I looked far better for sure, when I fit into smaller sizes and could control my appetite, but I was never as happy !!
I almost feel free of ridiculous expectations.. I can say 'yes' , I can say 'no' and I know what I am saying !! I can multitask without complaining,I can make friends more wisely and easily now because at this stage, friendships are not need based. you've seen it all, done it all and now you're just making great friends to add new dimensions to your ever growing circle of life !
..I have now become more of myself without trying to be someone who may be more appealing ! the biggest realisation of all... People love me for who I am and its fine to be the imperfect, impatient,short tempered, fat, wheatish, sometimes daft person that I have always been..
Approaching 30, my struggle seems to be over ! If crows feet are appearing at the corners of my eyes, I look at them like proof of having smiled more than cried..if the folds of skin refuse to separate themselves from my tummy, its testimonial for having 2 wonderful children.. the number of grey appearing here and there are the numbers of mistakes made lessons learnt..moreover, theres no shame in accepting that I did make mistakes, and I went wrong a million times !! apologizing doesnt seem so hard anymore, nor does loving !
This year, I'm going to celebrate being 30, rather than deny it ! Coz after all, life is just starting out and it keeps getting better !!
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