how my life has changed after oprah !

my obsession with oprah continues..even after my dream coming true..meeting her after 10 years of waiting..though i couldnt take a picture and couldnt get that hug..but i connected with her..
in that distance of 3 feet from her, a lot of things changed and emerged..

i realised that dreams do come true..we just dont dream clearly enough..all this while i said " i want to meet oprah, i want to just see her", and thats what happened.. i underestimated myself..thought that for a layperson like me, that would be enough..what could i possibly say to her ? how could i ever reach her ??, but i realised i was wrong..i could say a lot..i could do a lot.. now my dream takes a step further..i want to work with oprah..bring the oprah brand to india..represent it.. and i know it will happen ..

i realised that too much of my time is wasted behind people who i think are my friends..they are not..they are just around because they are around..and i should not give them more importance than i give myself.. they add no value to my life..and neither do they realise the value that i add to theirs.. i need to recognize my true companions and invest in them..

i realise that i have been way tooo lazy..way too complacent..i have not worked hard enough..not been enthusiastic enough..not been demanding enough...i took whatever came..my wish in life was to be comfertable..and comfertable i am..i am not doing extraordinarily,because i never demanded that out of myself or out of life... u get just exactly what you ask for..what you give ur life for..

i realise you have to be shameless...you just have to do it  !! when you keep thinking about it, it doesnt happen...ur just left with your thoughts and regrets...i realise that the feeling of guilt is better than a feeling or regret..atleast you did what you needed to do..whether right or wrong..mostly the fruit comes out of doing, rather than not doing !

i realise that no dream is big enough..and it is not my job to think how it will come true..my job is to believe...that it will..be grateful that it is on its way..and leave the rest to god ..

i realise that i am special..and people see that..only i dont !

i realise that i can do a lot better than i give myself credit for..i just need to push every atom of my body to excellence and i will achieve what i dream..

i realise i want to write a book and i will..soon..maybe ive already started and i dont know..

i realise im going to make a lot of money..im worthy of it..

i realise that people are waiting for me to smile at them and im waiting for them to make the first move..but now thats going to change..im going to smile more...

i realise that i have the best family in the world

i realise that i need to ask...at the max..they will say no...

i realise that i am capable of doing everything on my own without depending on others..im going to use my time more wisely..

i realise that you just need to follow your gut..ur instinct..it never lies !!

thankyou oprah..thakyou god !
my life is changing..thankgod i realise that too !!

Just how badly do you want it ??

In the past few days i have discovered just how much i am capable of, just how much energy, stamina, passion, drive i have..just how hard i can work, how much i can focus..and how it feels when u really really really want something !

whoever knows me, knows i am an Oprah fan..thats no news..but to what extent my obsession takes  me, has even taken me by surprise..it has been my constant and biggest dream for 10 years to meet oprah... i have her on my vision board..i use her products, diaries, bookmarks, books etc etc etc.. everytime i fight with my husband, i tell him "im getting on the next flight to chicago and going to oprah..if nothing else, il become a maid in her house"..everytime i have a bad day, oprah visits me in the night and the next day i am refreshed when i wake up !

oprah is now in bombay..and i have never worked harder in my life..ive become like a hawk..looking for every bit of information that would get me to her..getting in touch with the hotel she stays in, the security agencies, the press, the staff..just everyone who would be even remotely linked to her. im ready to go lobbying in her hotel for 24 hrs to get a glimpse of her.. id never known i have so much energy in me..i cant think about anything else...maybe this is called "focus"..to beat it all, i finally decide to face my fear and get a real tattoo ..which says "oprah". everyone thought i was crazy..mad..cuckoo..but it made complete sense to me..maybe thats what passion is !
ive booked my tickets to jaipur to follow her to the literature festival shes attending, not sure whether she will meet me...maybe thats what"taking a chance" is.

i break into a bout of tears every few minutes while doing the most mundane chores imagining the moment when i meet her..i wonder what il say and whether il b able to handle it..the possibilities are endless.. as of now, im doing the countdown.. 5 more days to meet her...my life would change in the next 5 days! it woud never be the same again because my dream would come true..my faith would be a living thing..breathing..singing..crying..maybe thats what "hope" is.

now i wonder...if i put so much focus to anything else,,i would have got it..if i wanted riches..id b richer than ambani !! but have i really wanted anything so badly ????? the answer is "no".

next time i desire something, im going to look at my oprah tattoo and ask myself "just how badly do u want it ??are u working"oprah" hard on this thing that u want?? and if not..why not?? and then ill move it..." and then the  universe will correspond to the rhythm of my song !
thats what "belief" is..