In the past few days i have discovered just how much i am capable of, just how much energy, stamina, passion, drive i have..just how hard i can work, how much i can focus..and how it feels when u really really really want something !
whoever knows me, knows i am an Oprah fan..thats no news..but to what extent my obsession takes me, has even taken me by surprise..it has been my constant and biggest dream for 10 years to meet oprah... i have her on my vision board..i use her products, diaries, bookmarks, books etc etc etc.. everytime i fight with my husband, i tell him "im getting on the next flight to chicago and going to oprah..if nothing else, il become a maid in her house"..everytime i have a bad day, oprah visits me in the night and the next day i am refreshed when i wake up !
oprah is now in bombay..and i have never worked harder in my life..ive become like a hawk..looking for every bit of information that would get me to her..getting in touch with the hotel she stays in, the security agencies, the press, the staff..just everyone who would be even remotely linked to her. im ready to go lobbying in her hotel for 24 hrs to get a glimpse of her.. id never known i have so much energy in me..i cant think about anything else...maybe this is called "focus"..to beat it all, i finally decide to face my fear and get a real tattoo ..which says "oprah". everyone thought i was crazy..mad..cuckoo..but it made complete sense to me..maybe thats what passion is !
ive booked my tickets to jaipur to follow her to the literature festival shes attending, not sure whether she will meet me...maybe thats what"taking a chance" is.
i break into a bout of tears every few minutes while doing the most mundane chores imagining the moment when i meet her..i wonder what il say and whether il b able to handle it..the possibilities are endless.. as of now, im doing the countdown.. 5 more days to meet her...my life would change in the next 5 days! it woud never be the same again because my dream would come true..my faith would be a living thing..breathing..singing..crying..maybe thats what "hope" is.
now i wonder...if i put so much focus to anything else,,i would have got it..if i wanted riches..id b richer than ambani !! but have i really wanted anything so badly ????? the answer is "no".
next time i desire something, im going to look at my oprah tattoo and ask myself "just how badly do u want it ??are u working"oprah" hard on this thing that u want?? and if not..why not?? and then ill move it..." and then the universe will correspond to the rhythm of my song !
thats what "belief" is..
whoever knows me, knows i am an Oprah fan..thats no news..but to what extent my obsession takes me, has even taken me by surprise..it has been my constant and biggest dream for 10 years to meet oprah... i have her on my vision board..i use her products, diaries, bookmarks, books etc etc etc.. everytime i fight with my husband, i tell him "im getting on the next flight to chicago and going to oprah..if nothing else, il become a maid in her house"..everytime i have a bad day, oprah visits me in the night and the next day i am refreshed when i wake up !
oprah is now in bombay..and i have never worked harder in my life..ive become like a hawk..looking for every bit of information that would get me to her..getting in touch with the hotel she stays in, the security agencies, the press, the staff..just everyone who would be even remotely linked to her. im ready to go lobbying in her hotel for 24 hrs to get a glimpse of her.. id never known i have so much energy in me..i cant think about anything else...maybe this is called "focus"..to beat it all, i finally decide to face my fear and get a real tattoo ..which says "oprah". everyone thought i was crazy..mad..cuckoo..but it made complete sense to me..maybe thats what passion is !
ive booked my tickets to jaipur to follow her to the literature festival shes attending, not sure whether she will meet me...maybe thats what"taking a chance" is.
i break into a bout of tears every few minutes while doing the most mundane chores imagining the moment when i meet her..i wonder what il say and whether il b able to handle it..the possibilities are endless.. as of now, im doing the countdown.. 5 more days to meet her...my life would change in the next 5 days! it woud never be the same again because my dream would come true..my faith would be a living thing..breathing..singing..crying..maybe thats what "hope" is.
now i wonder...if i put so much focus to anything else,,i would have got it..if i wanted riches..id b richer than ambani !! but have i really wanted anything so badly ????? the answer is "no".
next time i desire something, im going to look at my oprah tattoo and ask myself "just how badly do u want it ??are u working"oprah" hard on this thing that u want?? and if not..why not?? and then ill move it..." and then the universe will correspond to the rhythm of my song !
thats what "belief" is..
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