This year my resolution was to grow..to learn..to get stronger..maybe even slightly independant.. I was doing whatever I could do to educate myself further in personal development..is it fun ? Oh yes !! Is it easy ?? Hell, NO ! Am I succeeding ?.. I thought I was, till today morning.. And then ?? Then life took over !!
.It is so strange that sometimes we can be on the top of the world and the next moment we cud be biting the dust. And it doesn't take much for that euphoria balloon to burst..
Each time I tell myself " I want to be powerful" and I start feeling the energy, I run my mind thru everything I learnt so far, start feeding my heart with positive affirmations and in the next moment..KABOOM !! One small comment from a dear one can bring me to the reality of how weak I still am..
Why is that we are so dependant on others for our happiness ? Howcome we can never validate ourselves and seek it from people who may not care to give it to us ? Why do we give them so much power that we are left powerless in front of their insensitivity?!
Are we all slaves to the spoken word of anyone but ourselves ? Don't we give ourselves the tiniest bit of credit and credibility ? Do we doubt our own sense ?? Or do we carry the expression of a retard on our face ..
While I was speaking to a friend about these hopeless situations whch act as those ever so irritating road blocks on my road to nirvana, he said " take a paper and write a thankyou note to all those people who hurt you.. You have learnt a lesson because of that hurt..and u will know that you allowed it to happen to you". AHAA !!!!!!
Did I allow them to hurt me ?? No.. Let me try again... DID I REALLY ALLOW IT ALL ??? Although my ego is getting a stomach ache admitting this... I'll still give myself a meek 'yes'. What's my checklist ??
1) Do I feel guilty saying NO when I want to ?
2) Do I always keep myself last on the rack of my own priorities ?
3) Do I always go out of my way to make someone else happy ?
4) Do I keep my tears to myself when someone has hurt me ?
5) Do I pretend to be normal in every quasy situation just to keep the peace ?
If your answer like mine is "yes" in all or most of the above, then YES... You, like me
are a slave to another mans preoccupied mind and his poisonous tongue. We gift our heart, mind and soul to some ungrateful soul labelled " To, Mr Random, with love.. Forever yours Slave"
My question is "What exactly are we expecting in return ?".. something to think about !
.It is so strange that sometimes we can be on the top of the world and the next moment we cud be biting the dust. And it doesn't take much for that euphoria balloon to burst..
Each time I tell myself " I want to be powerful" and I start feeling the energy, I run my mind thru everything I learnt so far, start feeding my heart with positive affirmations and in the next moment..KABOOM !! One small comment from a dear one can bring me to the reality of how weak I still am..
Why is that we are so dependant on others for our happiness ? Howcome we can never validate ourselves and seek it from people who may not care to give it to us ? Why do we give them so much power that we are left powerless in front of their insensitivity?!
Are we all slaves to the spoken word of anyone but ourselves ? Don't we give ourselves the tiniest bit of credit and credibility ? Do we doubt our own sense ?? Or do we carry the expression of a retard on our face ..
While I was speaking to a friend about these hopeless situations whch act as those ever so irritating road blocks on my road to nirvana, he said " take a paper and write a thankyou note to all those people who hurt you.. You have learnt a lesson because of that hurt..and u will know that you allowed it to happen to you". AHAA !!!!!!
Did I allow them to hurt me ?? No.. Let me try again... DID I REALLY ALLOW IT ALL ??? Although my ego is getting a stomach ache admitting this... I'll still give myself a meek 'yes'. What's my checklist ??
1) Do I feel guilty saying NO when I want to ?
2) Do I always keep myself last on the rack of my own priorities ?
3) Do I always go out of my way to make someone else happy ?
4) Do I keep my tears to myself when someone has hurt me ?
5) Do I pretend to be normal in every quasy situation just to keep the peace ?
If your answer like mine is "yes" in all or most of the above, then YES... You, like me
are a slave to another mans preoccupied mind and his poisonous tongue. We gift our heart, mind and soul to some ungrateful soul labelled " To, Mr Random, with love.. Forever yours Slave"
My question is "What exactly are we expecting in return ?".. something to think about !
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